welcome to my LJ

so it's been a crazy long time. my last post was december of '06.

hm...soo since then i successfully got through my senior year and managed to have a tremendous amount of fun while doing so. i got to go to europe [italy and greece] and it was pretty frikin' fantastic.

currently i'm a freshman in college. and i'm thoroughly enjoying it. making new friends, learning new stuff, being independent [for the most part]. i love most of my teachers and most of my classes. this semester is going a lot better than last semester.

i really dunno what else to talk about, especially since i don't think any one is gonna read this.

it's quite nice to reminisce [or however you spell it] though.

:]

i'm honestly about to be sick

i worry way too much, and i try not to but i cant help it.

i've had mr. canning send a teacher recommendation to flagler twice, and they

haven't received it. i have 80 notecards due on wednesday, and questions in my

thesis book. a psych test on wed. a pre-cal quiz on wed. and i have a 66 in

that class. if i dont get at least a C in that class by the time report cards

come out i'm dead.

ujnknmll'mklmnklk

^my head beating the keyboard^

i honestly hate myself right now

yea...even though no one reads this i felt the need to

apologize for the intense depressed-ness i have been

expressing. i just re-read some of 'em and i was like

"dang! that sounds so depressing."

so even if no one reads this or has read previous ones,

whatever...i felt the need to apologize

i hate it

i'm so sick of myself and others

i can't wait to get out of here...

this time next year i'll be on flagler's campus (well, hopefully)

if anyone is reading this i'm sorry it's so negative

i know that it's not fun to read

but i just have to get it out

i hate guys...

they bloww.....

'nuff said

i feel like such a frikin emo kid and it blows

i feel like there's something wrong with me, but i cant put my finger on it

i think part of it is i feel like i'm sick of people, but i hate being alone...so...idk...

i majorly hate this

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rahh...i'm sick and it sucks. i feel like my head will explode and my throat is closing...it hurts. i really should be reading death of a salesman or an echoe in the darkness seeing as there is a socratic discussion on one and perhaps a quiz on the other tomorrow but i cant bring myself to focus. it's a terrible flaw i can never quite bring myself to get over =/

blech...i dont wanna be sick. i'm such a baby when it comes to being sick =P

my aunt just had her baby!! he wasnt supposed to be born until october...but he's here now...but i cant be there yet. erg, i'll be there soon enuff...it's just really really wierd. like woa...he's my only first cousin (officially) so it's pretty cool. she named him aiden. i'm not sure if that's how she's spelling it. maybe aden...i dunno, but woo hoo! i'm excited!! =>

whoopie school is starting up again~ *sarcastically* blah...i'm not done with my AP English books yet, although i managed to tackle crime and punishment!! woo hoo! but i have 2 more to go, and it starts thursday...i'm going to die just a tiny bit. XP <-- my dead face. i took off wednesday but it probably wont be much fun, i have to do errands with my mom and finish the books and write the essays. ugh, whoopie.
much love, see you at school although no1 reads this anymore so they dont know i'm saying hi but whatever, i'll get over it =>

blah...i feel like sh!t.

i really have nuthin to say, i'm just wasting time until i have to start working again...that's 3 minutes...erg, well...much love everyone...i guess i'll just go now...

but it was totally worth it!!! i went to an amazing concert last night. it was head automatica, taking back sunday, and angel and airwaves. i was late for my mom to pick me up so now she's angry and i'm either grounded for 12 days or i have to pay her $64 which totally blows either way. it's not like i could even leave early tho, dude i was surrounded by mosh pits. i told her that and she just lectured me even more...so wutever, i'm just gonna pay her cuz i cant be grounded while steph is here. that would totally and majorly be uncool. well, i have to go back to work now, peace everyone.
much love, mika

i'm tired...but i still have to work until 6:15, it's only 1:20. gr, it kinda sucks. i should probably clock back in so i can get paid and so ppl dont think i'm a horrible slacker...erg...well, at least i have the movies to look forward to tonight...but that's not until 8:30...but wutever...buh bye, much love all.

dude, seriously...life is really unfair to some that dont deserve it...it pretty much sucks

i'm dreadfully afraid...i think i might have sent sumthing i shouldnt have...erg...i dunno...wutever, i'm sure it'll be ok...i hope

~~~~~~~~~~~~~later the same day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it is all good and im happy now...woo woo!

i really have nuthin to say...but i dont really have nething better to do...i'm tired. i should go to bed so i wont be miserable in the morning...but i dont wanna...and besides i just got sum bawls to help me out...that sounds really weird...tee hee.
i have sumthin totally random to say that no1 probably cares about but wutever...i'm listening to this song and it's starting to bother me cuz one of the guys sounds like he has to much spit in his mouth when he says certain words...lol...sorry for the randomness...
newayz...i really have nuthin to say i dunno y i'm posting, so i'm just gonna go, have a good night or wutever...
luff, mika
p.s.~that song i was talkin about was "tu eres mi baby" by daddy yankee and nicky jam
well now my mommmies yellin at me to get off just wen i thought of sumthing to say and now i completely forgot...=( wutever, i guess it wasnt that good then...

so...i'm tired and bored and i'd tell you about life but it's been pretty non~eventful lately...
i work a lot...like every day from 9 to 6:30 but i got off early today with richie cuz it was slow and the world cup was about to go down so we were allowed to take off...woo hoo! so we went to the mall. also non~eventful. we got coffee then i went home. woot!
we saw the omen on saturday...it was good, i enjoyed it despite my fear of it...uh...i wanna say something to try to get rid of my bored~ness but i have nuthin to say...oh! i changed my thingee's...where u put the emotion ur feeling, ya kno? b4 it was a kittie n now it's a penguin! woot!
so...yah...that's my interesting life. so cool, eh?
well, on that note, i'm out...bye everybody, much luff to ya all....

i feel happy! lol, and for no particular reason i just feel happy and it's fantabulous! maybe it's junior-senior excitement, i hope i'm not makin to much of a deal of it then it blows, but at least the after party should be fun and if it's not who gives a crap, i'm with my friends, what could be better?! i luff all of you guys!!! hm, i dunno for positive wut i'm gonna do with my hair, but i think i kno, so it should be all good...=) woot woot, peace out everyone and i love you!

hey, i just felt like randomly posting cuz i havent posted in it seems like forever...i'll give an update on my last post, i think that was about my father...well, he continues to be an a$$ by telling my mommy that he'll send me pics of my steph-bro and sis but i never got them...you would think if he thinks about me "so much" he could remember to put a couple of pictures in the mail with at least a little note saying hello or something...yea, it kinda sux a little bit.

so, my mommy talked to my dad today...she told me that and i was like "o" cuz i dont really kno wut to say to that, ya kno? so there was a court thingee about child support and they decided we deserve more money (woo hoo!) but he wants to contact me now or wutever...
so...he told my mom to tell me that he thinks about me and he wants to kno if he can contact me but he doesnt kno how cuz he doesnt wanna screw up my life, and it turns out i have a half bro and half sister. my bro is 14 and my sister is 2 and 1/2. so...hm, i dunno wut 2 do with him...like, i wanna get to kno him i think, but erg...it's wierd...like, ah. he told my mom i could write him a letter or he could write a letter to me. i'd prefer for him to write a letter to me cuz my letter would be like "hello...signed, demika" lol, i wouldnt kno wut to say to him. so, yea, i kinda hope he does write to me, like...i dunno...erg...it's frikin confusing...

i feel like i've been doing ALOT of thinking lately...woo...that's good, except for some of the things i think about depress me, but i'll be okay, if it's not the end of the world or anybody cool's life then it's no big deal...it's just hard to keep that in mind, i tend to blow things out of proportion i think